“Once our eyes are opened, we can’t pretend we don’t know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act.” Proverbs 24:12
For nearly a year I felt the nudges and ignored them. I told God exactly where I wanted our lives to go and I was just waiting on him to start the next chapter for us. My mind was so set on the path I envisioned for my family, although the idea of adoption was weighing on my heart daily.
“There’s no way. How can this be in God’s will for our lives? Am I making this up?"
“I’m not strong enough to handle this.”
Those brief whispers of adoption pulled at me and pulled at me until one day those whispers turned into clear shouts. I couldn’t ignore it anymore. The fear of the unknown escaped me and I needed to tell Jeremy. I was terrified. We had been trying for several months to conceive again and here I am, just spoiling our plans out of nowhere. But praise God, he’d been feeling those same nudges too.
So we prayed together. We fasted together. We feasted on the Word together. And we waited together. Our eyes, ears, and hearts were now completely open to the vision being set before us.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
2019 is likely to be the year we become a party of 5, just not in the way we originally expected. Adoption is an emotional journey built upon brokenness. We know there’s going to be highs as well as lows. But we are completely confident in the firm foundation we’re standing on as a family. Our hope is to someday tell our precious child that we were filled with faith during this process and how our family and friends loved and prayed for them before they ever knew them. So would you pray for us?
Pray not only for the outcome of our adoption, but that we would remain obedient and trusting to God’s plan no matter what. Pray that we can be good stewards to whatever tools are provided to get us through this. And most importantly, pray for the expectant mom and that she can have the strength to make the best decision for her child. Pray that she can receive the love and guidance, whether through friends, family, or complete strangers to lift her up through this experience. Pray that she knows that she is loved and can see Jesus through our family, given we ever cross paths.
We’re so excited to take you along on this journey with us! And we can’t wait to see what God has in store. We know we’ll be bringing home our sweet baby soon.
“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to Him be the glory..." Ephesians 3:20-21